Dawson’s Creek writer Heidi Ferrer, 50, took her own life after a lengthy battle with Covid that left her riddled with pain.
The mother-of-one committed suicide at her home in Los Angeles, California, after the virus she contracted in April 2020 left her bedridden.
In a heartbreaking post she wrote in September, Ferrer shared how the virus had crippled her as she declared that ‘COVID won’t win.’
“The monster is real and it came for me. Recovering from COVID-19 has been one of the hardest things I’ve ever gone through and I’ve been through a lot,” she wrote.
“In my darkest moments, I told my husband that if I didn’t get better, I did not want to live like this. I wasn’t suicidal, I just couldn’t see any quality of life long term and there was no end in sight.
“One of the cruelest things COVID did to me was to take away my ability to have dreams. I don’t mean dreams in my sleep, I mean I completely stopped dreaming about my future because I couldn’t picture it. It was a wall.
“Yes, everyone had lost our trips, our events, our free lives during the shutdown, but I had lost all of that and also became suddenly crippled with scary neurological programs.”
“I believe this in my bones: If you are suffering from this monster, you will eventually make it out, we will heal,” she continued.
“Slowly, almost inexorably, sometimes glacially… we are recovering. It’s just that no one knows for sure how long it might take, maybe six months, maybe a year.”
The writer also detailed how her condition started to improve in August. “I now believe that I will still have more ‘waves’ of symptoms and bad days, but it feels like it’s happening every month now instead of every 1-2 weeks,” she expressed.
“My loose timeline is that about two weeks after the first symptoms mid-April, I had COVID toes May 1st, then one month later succumbed to 2 months of crippled pain from hell, then I began to slowly heal.
“I had a turning point at 12 weeks, then a much bigger one at 16 weeks, and I’m expecting to be much better in two months, 6 months from the symptom onset. Fingers crossed.
“Time will tell, but I’m focusing on being wildly optimistic. COVID won’t win.”
But Ferrer’s condition deteriorated quickly in the last few months.
Her grieving husband Nick Guthe, a director, producer and screenwriter, announced the news of her death after her 13-month battle.
“She fought it like she lived, ferociously, but in the end it was relentless and took away everything from her,” he wrote on Facebook.
Fedder is survived by her husband and their son Bexon, 13.
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