Flashlight hitmaker Jessie J has revealed she has suffered a miscarriage just a month after she and her boyfriend had split up.
Taking to Instagram to announce the tragic news, the 33-year-old singer and songwriter who recently announced she was going to have her child on her own revealed that her baby’s heartbeat could no longer be detected during her 3rd scan.
“Yesterday morning I was laughing with a friend saying ‘seriously though how am I going to get through my gig in LA tomorrow night without telling the whole audience I am pregnant,’” Jessie recalled in her post.
“By yesterday afternoon I was dreading the thought of getting through the gig without breaking down.
“After going for my 3rd scan and being told there was no longer a heartbeat. This morning. I feel like I have no control of my emotions. I may regret posting this. I may not. I actually don’t know.”
The tragic news follows just a month after the Bang Bang hitmaker revealed she had “decided to have a baby on my own” following her split from her boyfriend, Max Pham.
Despite the tragedy, Jessie decided to continue singing not to avoid processing grief but because her soul needs it during these challenging times.
“I know some people will be thinking she should just cancel it,” Jessie added in her post ahead of her scheduled performance.
“But in this moment I have clarity on one thing. I started singing when I was young for joy, to fill my soul and self love therapy, that hasn’t ever changed and I have to process this my way.
“I want to be honest and true and not hide what I’m feeling. I deserve that. I want to be as myself as I can be in this moment. Not just for the audience but for myself and my little baby that did it’s best.
“I know myself and I know I would talk about it on stage because that’s who I am. So instead of a tearful emotional speech trying to explain my energy. This feels safer.
“I decided to have a baby on my own. Because it’s all I’ve ever wanted and life is short. To get pregnant was a miracle in itself and an experience I will never forget and I know I will have again.”
Concluding her heartbreaking message, Jessie admitted to feeling shocked, lonely, and overwhelmed with sadness.
“Im still in shock, the sadness is overwhelming. But I know I am strong, and I know I will be ok. I also know millions of women all over the world have felt this pain and way worse. I feel connected to those of you I know and those of you I don’t,” the singer wrote.
“It’s the loneliest feeling in the world. So I will see you tonight LA. I may crack less jokes but my heart will be in the room.”
Our thoughts are with Jessie during these hard times. Stay strong!
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